Bad Start

In the continuental state of the life, we need good start to cross the path.

Well, exactly I have make a bad start for this final exam. Today the Pathologic department announce the mid test score. Well there's so much hope there for me. What a shock when I see the paper on the board. My score is not whorted at all. Out from my expectation. The lecture said that more than 80% got more than 80, and my score isn't reach that range. What a junk.

On the morning was held the final test of the lab practice of pathology. Not like what I guess, the question is totally a night mare. 5 microscopy and 15 gross preparation. And I feel that the lab practice every tuesday-wednesday is not beneficialy at all. We have learned for 41 slides of microscopy and the question just 5. And it's become one of a bad start.

Look at the past, on the mid test, I gave all my attention to this mid test because I knew that on the final test I won't have enough time to study prepare the test. And the important one, I haven't start my reasearch due to the bureaucracy. Well, I have so much time to prepare for the mid test, but what I got? all the mid test result gone bad.

Pharmacology score have been announced after the mid test due to the remedial test the next week after these. And what a bad start exactly, I got a bad score in the pretest before the lab practice. The pretest will be added with the mid test score and divided with the formula based on credit of pharmacology. And the result? I belive that my score has been decreased because of the bad start, what I mean, the lab practice's pretest score.

Back to the event this day.
The announce of the mid test score totally change my mood. But, I didn't show it to my best friend frontally. Even I believe they knew about my feeling because my eyes and my face can't lie. And I didn't use my skill to change my face shape. Yes, totally I got no mood.

The theory mid test score for pathology is bad,but it's no give a great influence to my mood today. Even a little dispointed occurs because I believe in the mid test I can answer 80% of the question, and the result? I just got 52% . Second junk of these day. The lab practice mid test is greatly decreased my mood. There is soo big dispointment when I see my score is not in the 80% range. Oh My God...

And some people that listed as my rival (just on my mind) got a good score, I can't descripe my feeling for these.

Sitting on silent with no view attract my friend to give my some advice. Well, before you said that guys, exactly I can read your mind about what are you want to talk about. What a childish. But, some frieds, exactly my best friend get a bad result, and others got a good result. I felt happy for this, I can't show it, yes, because my mood was totally dominate my feeling and mind.

As a bestfriend, they cheer me up, I feel thankfull for the cheer. But I wanna say sorry, because until now, the mod isn't come to me. He said some person said cheer sometimes didn't make the situation become better but worse. But exactly his cheer didn't exacerbate my mood and I really wanna say thank you for these.

Well degradation of my brain is disturbing my mind since the first day of the class in this faculty. Well, it's true from someone on her facebook status that say,"My lucky is completly used up to enroll to this faculty, and what I need now to survive is just study with my own." This "quote" distub my mind for a second and let me think that yes, it's true.

Well, by post this blog, I wanna say thanks for those who try to cheer me up, but sorry if my respond is not like what you want.
Thanks to eja, rio, ari, cupid, iji, didi, sofi, samson, rimbek, alin, and gaby. What a lucky too know you all guys.


Why I post this blog?
Because I have no word when you cheer me up guys. I don't know what the respond that I should act. But, again, thank you guys. But some part of my feeling today is not descripe on this post because I think it's too controversional. Just let me and one of you know it.

Today's annoucement and final lab practice are totally a bad start for tommorow pathologic final exam.

But tommorow should be the day to proof that a bad start doesn't effect anything for the best result. The proof of hope, even sometimes I feel it's so imposibble (yes, because I believe tommorow test will be a night mare) but it's not wrong if I still have hope for tommorow test.

Thanks for you who want read this junk.

Thanks for the cheers my bestfriends.

Hope the best for tommorow final test...!

See you on the next post

_arif tri_